Time

 

 

 

You would think that coming up on almost 5 years without Kendra, we would start to get used to her not being here.  That as the years pass, memories would fade, our thoughts of her would be less, that time would be kind.  I can tell you time does not diminish the ache in our hearts, we still think of her every........single.........day!!  

We still talk of her all the time, we laugh when we remember funny things she said or did.  We share our thoughts of missing her and how we long to see her again.  Time is a funny thing when you are on a grief journey, it loses all meaning of how you used to see it.  It still feels like yesterday that we last saw her and other times it feels like forever.  It still takes my breath away, it still feels unbelievable and it still hurts deeply.   

 I have come to accept that no matter how many years go by or how much time passes, grief has taken up a permanent residence in my heart.  Yes, we have come a long way, yes, we have healed, but we have scars that we will take with us to our graves.  Time is meaningless to a broken heart, because we never fully heal, the cracks are forever there.  Once you have suffered a great loss and start on the grief journey, it is a path that you are on until the end of your days.  It is a lifelong journey, as you learn to live with a piece of your heart missing, always navigating life without your loved one being a part of it.  But we know that at the end of our journey, we will once again be reunited!!  And that is a joy that brings peace and calm to my heart like nothing else.  Still and forever missing you K Girl!!